We got our results on Wednesday. I didn’t fail. Which I suppose it a good thing. Suppose. I almost did. If it wasn’t for anatomy I would have failed two of the modules. I don’t understand how there was a 40% difference in some cases between my non-anatomy and my anatomy marks. All I can say is that the Anatomy Colouring Book is a god-send.
I should just be grateful but I’m not. I could have done better. Forget the fact that I revised almost every day of the holidays; in some way I could have, should have, done better. Oh well, let’s just forget the dream about graduating with honours. I shouldn’t care. I should just be happy.
You can probably see that I didn’t take it too well. Let’s just say it involved chocolate cake and cream. And the inevitable guilt that followed.
Forgetting about results now – I’ve been in a really weird mood for the past week. Down and depressed. Empty. Mostly empty. We’ve had so many 6 o clock finishes that I swear I haven’t seen the sun in weeks. I just feel like I’m drifting, which is weird considering the goal is to graduate. I can’t seem to shake it. It didn’t help that Thursday (GP day) was just a ball of loony. Everything was weird and got weirder from the taxi driver who sounded like that Indian Pirate Lord from Pirates of the Caribbean to the point when my friend said yes and I swear down on my life she said no (you kind of had to be there). Last night was good. So was this morning. I went on an expedition to find a newsagent that sells the Times (can you believe the shop downstairs sell the Sun but not the Times!) Then I spent four hours on one anatomy session prep (shoulder and pectoral girdle – oh the joy. Not). And now it’s back.
I really want to write. Maybe that’s why I’m feeling like this. But I can’t. One – no ideas. Actually, there is an idea. But I can’t get it down. And part of me doesn’t want to because I know it’s going to be just as embarrassing as the other “book” I wrote. And then there’s the other idea that can’t seem to take off. I don’t care if it’s even a stupid fanfiction story. I just need to write. Please. Something. Anything. There was a point two and three but they sort of already got covered...
Wow, reading back - this has been one self-absorbed post full of in jokes that you aren’t going to get because duh, you don’t know me.
Maybe next week will be better.
CUE GASP
11 years ago
8 comments:
All blogs can be seen as "me, me, me" festivals, don't worry.
Write! I hope you get past the writer's block! =D
Jees, they should have the Times newspaper. Sigh.
=]
Thanks Emad! I actually got an idea a few hours after writing that post - maybe it'll be the start of something.
You would think, wouldn't you? It's only the most well known paper there is. They have the Financial Times but not THE Times. Sigh indeed.
P.S. I looked up Wonder Boys on youtube. It actually looks really good. Shame the full film isn't available lol :D
Well done on passing! I know the whole perfectionist feeling when you do less well then you feel you should have (threw a fit over my History A that should've been an A* at GCSE, lol). In any case, I hope the chocolate helped :D lol. And am now gunna buy an anatomy colouring book.
Oh, and excess busy-ness is getting to me too :| The week was a blur! Hang in there. Sounds like you're actually getting season affected disorder just from being deprived of sunlight, lol. Good luck with the writing (Y)
*waves*
Thanks Humaira!! Hope your results go well too, as I'm sure they will :D
*waves back*
I don't think anyone got the results they were necessarily expecting. Please don't be too hard on yourself, your already working far more than I am. I don't want to sound pompous but maybe its that way that your working, or if your doing 4 hours on the anatomy sheets do you not think you might be going in a bit too much detail? Medical school women does help, trust me I've been there many times just in the 1st term. Congratulations on passing, that is the key thing to remember
Thank you Anonymous. And don't worry, you don't sound pompous at all. And yes, I probably am going into a little (way too much) detail lol. When you say Medical School Woman do you mean welfare lady - if so, maybe I will go see her soon. Hope you did alright :D
Yeah I do mean her, she helped me an unbelievable amount, yes I'm still struggling but at the beginning of term I did did feel like I was sinking. Email her, book an appointment believe it will be one of the best things you do this term.
Opposite to you, my anatomy wasn't great but the other part I was very chuffed with..
Thanks! I will do. And well done, glad they went alright for you :D
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